autumnwixy

if he makes you feel...

autumnwixy — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 11:15:00 +0000

another realization

a bit cheesy but comes from the heart...<3

before jay, i was a music addict

...i kept finding myself in tunes and lyrics

but when he came, i lost the need to search for new songs

i guess it came to be that he gave me back my self

...He made me see who I really am.

He became my music... and now we're creating our own tune,

composing with our own words...

he makes me extremely happy!

and i have to say that ours is my favorite song... :)

fractions

autumnwixy — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 03:18:00 +0000

and if they say i'm better than that

we'll know it's true

let them believe it's all they can see

senses and pavements, paintings on our wall

incongruency came true as we let them fall

questions resolved and untamed

are pieces of our partiality

fractions wash over our floor

rekindle this light that was hidden to all

and if they say i'm better than that

we'll know it's real

we've called the shots and now we're fighting

shield the kill, we're dying

i'll make us safe and keep you warm

struggling to feel your faith in my arms

and we'll both shatter onto these painted walls

there's no lying here

we've both been solved

and if they say we're better than this

we can say it's fake

the sounds in our ears

echoing "we're safe"

Naglalaro sa aking utak

autumnwixy — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 22:17:00 +0000

at iyon na nga...

tumibok aking damdamin... kakaba-kaba

hindi ko na alam gagawin, nanunuyong mga labi

nakita ko siya kulang na lang mapaihi

ganito pala talaga pag nakakakita ng bagong gawi

sa isang saglit halos mapasigaw

ikaw na nga ba ang magliligaw ng tanglaw

sa aking utak lumilipad lipad,

imaimahinasyon mo, ako'y di makakurap!

naglalaro aking utak ng mga kwento tungkol sa akin at sayo

o nakakatakot na lumang lumang salamin ng lola ng aking lola!

please... wag kang maging mahiwaga! :s

my pledge (of some sort)

autumnwixy — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 22:04:00 +0000

So hi there blog.

I have moved from www.akiretwelve.blogs.friendster.com to you.

Anyhoo… I MISS BLOGGING!!!

As a student, my priority is to study and read school materials

Which means I don’t have much time for extra activities

Which means I have neglected my passion for writing!

Shame. Shame. Shame.

I have also abandoned my sad excuse of developing my drawings

I do believe and sincerely know, that I, can, improve my art

Haha…

mm… so I am reaching out again to the blogosphere!

Please let me in once again!

It is scary because I don’t know how to write in a public online journal anymore

I’m not the type of blogger who writes for an audience

I usually write emo poems (before) you know!

Haha

But life has changed

I have changed

And so… I’ll try to write differently now…

Maybe more on what has happened to me… things like that

Less…… heavy. J

Aaaaaaand…there!

I’ll find time to update and stuff.

This entry is too long already with no real content

Haha! What a waste! Blah

Baaah humbug!

Something's wrong with me... or

autumnwixy — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 22:55:00 +0000

There is something definitely wrong with me.

Out of all the numerous websites I can go to and see while hanging out in cyberspace

I always decide to revisit those from my past.

Haha, crazy. I don't know. I'm nostalgic that way.

It's just a bit weird that I find comfort knowing that what I've been through

Is made more real by the people (only alive to me) online.

Hehe, the kind of people I don't talk to anymore. I sometimes don't even want to see again.

Somehow, when I go online, they are there and i acknowledge their presence.

They're suddenly alive again to me... though not really.:)

Hmm, i don't really know how this works but...

seeing how I was able to affect other people's lives, really is something. feels strange.

bitTeR.sweet. tO theM. to me.

:) and so to you guys. haha

best wishes!

because i have nothing nice to write about myself

autumnwixy — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 23:19:00 +0000

◘ Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?

-> boy

◘ What is one question people always ask you?

-> bakit wix? well, di naman lagi pero un madalas eh.

◘ What's the last thing you said?

-> bsta something not nice

◘ Name something you are doing tomorrow?

-> stressing

◘ Where is your cell phone?

-> here

◘ When was the last time you had starbucks?

-> last last Sunday i think

◘ Can you whistle?

-> ahuh

◘ Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?

-> nope

◘ Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

-> hun

◘ What’s bothering you right now?

-> thesis needs

◘ What are you wearing?

-> sleeveless and shorts

◘ Next vacation you're going on?

-> school vacation

◘ What did you dream about last night?

-> dunno

◘ Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?

-> hmm... gladly when it does im still awake

◘ What gets in your way of your sleeping?

-> what else.

◘ Do you know anyone who's married?

-> ahuh

◘ Do you know anyone who is married that shouldn't be?

-> hahaha... la naman ata

◘ Whats your favorite number?

-> 12

◘ Who was the last person that made you cry?

-> everyone! blah, joke

◘ Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow?

-> in school, thesis research most prolly

◘ Are you jealous of anyone?

-> hmm.....

◘ Who did you last share a bed with?

-> sister ata!

◘ Do you like coffee?

-> very much, but now i think ive deveoped taste aversion already

◘ If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret?

-> million bucks! that regret led me to that million bucks!

◘ What’s on your mind right now?

-> thesis

◘ Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?

-> hahaha, missy maramara!

◘ What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?

-> no idea! going home late?

◘ What is your nickname?

-> wix

◘ Is there anybody you would push off the planet?

-> bwahahaha

◘ Do you crack your fingers?

-> ahuh

◘ Plans for tonight?

-> this

◘ Favorite color?

-> black, red

◘ Who pissed you off yesterday?

-> hmm....cant remmber or i just dnt want to

◘ In the past five years, what would you go back and change?

-> nan

◘ Have you ever been on a blind date?

-> hahaha, nope!:o

I am the girl

autumnwixy — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 22:47:00 +0000

I am the girl with the broken smile

I am the girl you love to deny

I hid behind your eyes for you not to see

That I am bleeding internally

I ache in the most mundane areas

I ache for the pain that you love to bury

You know I’m here, you know I’m breathing

I’m growing nastier with each passing day

I’m getting to be the sickness of your soul

Deny me much longer, maggots will crawl

Through your skin and out your lips

Those lips they hunger to taste

The guys that don’t know you’re rotting

They see your white skin, your fragile physic

They don’t see that hardened heart, your destroyed mind

I am here and you can deny as long as you want

Not to worry, they won’t see

You’ll stay as beautiful, though inside you’re empty.